12-Jun / THEATER AACHEN / 1 COMMENTS

Last week was our last performance of ANATEVKA for the current season. Since the project meant a lot to me, I was expecting to be at least somewhat heart broken. Therefor I was a bit surprised to find myself lighthearted by the end of the show. I was happy and proud of the work I managed with my colleagues , for the fun I had on the stage, for the experience, but at the same time I felt lighter. Like my focus point can move on. I have the tendency to concentrate 100% on where I physically am and what I do, which is great for work most of the time. I think I chose to operate this way. Once I am in a project I aim all my creative energy towards the performances. Since I deal with live performances- an art form fixed in time, I keep on evolving with the piece until the last performance is over. Then, and only then, is it over for me, and I can really let go.

I have many colleagues that that work in different ways. The minute a premiere has passed they are off, both physically and emotionally, to the next thing. I don’t know if I can look at my work this way. I do have multiple projects going on at the same time, but I have only one body. I commit to whatever I choose to do in any given moment. I usually don’t take on projects I won’t be able to dive into in such a way.

Maybe this too will evolve along with my development as an artist. So far it has served me well.